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I could use something going for me these days, because no one seems to want to talk about anything that's happening, or that's happened lately. We don't have to talk. I can sit around in silence and I can listen to anything you want to say. I can't hold a grudge, at least not the way I used to. And this hurts me, can't help but think that it might hurt you too. I don't want to sit around much longer. I don't want to wait around for things to keep get worse and I hope you know, you're still my best friend. I hope you know how much I love you. I guess that I could stand to say it more. I'm not the friend that you deserve. I'm not sure how to put this all into words, but I guess I'll try. I hope you know that it's all true- that I'm sorry, I didn't mean it, and I miss you.
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Kogan Fountain
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Sweat stains my shirt, a plague of reasons keeps on telling me that I should go home. It's another pair of eyes I try to shake. They'll never see my heart as it's beating. I know you're there, and it's not fair, these imaginary lines between us. The fountain's cold. My clothes are soaked. Just another DC night between us.
Late once again. Four years seem to pass so quickly. You're dead and gone and I've been wondering where it was I went wrong.
I close my eyes. Hate what I find. Can't seem to get this right.
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Honestly honesty never meant much to me through the teeth of a liar. You made your bed, lie down dead. This feeling gets hard to shake. Don't you ever get tired?
I know you better than that, well as a matter of fact I've seen you at your worst. I'll turn you into another angry song. Feel free to sing along- it's what you always do. Man I told you, you got to let this go, this stupid image this show you're putting on. Why do you walk away from what you want to say on who you really are?
This is getting hard to take. I keep expecting you to break. You keep getting back up. How much more can you handle? Can't you see that you're tangled up in the lies that you tell. Your mother must be so proud.
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All We Do Is Talk
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Well I've been here before. She smelled like cigarettes, passed out face down on my floor. I know she tried to make things right but sometimes you can't fix things this broke. I took the long way around. Trying hard not to get caught, I fought the urge to make a sound. The words were on my tongue but they all sounded so wrong, so I slipped back into silence, put them back where they came from. I wish that I could say something like, "Hey I hope there's no hard feelings." But If I'm anything like you, I know exactly how you're feeling.
Is happiness really this hard? Because I've been chasing it around before it gets too fucking far for me to catch. You're detached, I hope she's getting along. I never really wanted anyone to need me after all. I'm a post, she's a vine. She grew herself around my spine. She had to see this coming. It was just a matter of time. I've been trying something new, I separate myself from you and hope that we both end up alright in time.
I don't want my past to ruin what I have with you. I don't want to let you down.
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